Friends

Their there beside you everyday,
they help you through your probelms,
and you help them through theirs.
But what happens when your friends are the probelm,
what happens when you have no one to go to,
no one who cares.
My friends are like my sisters i tell them everything,
i have feelings,
and i get hurt,
i am human.

you made me see everything now,

i'm not worth your time,
i'm not worth anything.
you made me see clearly,
about my life and about you.
did you ever want me?
did you ever care?
i ask myself these questions,
and know ill get no anwser.
i'm going insane with my thoughts,
but the pain is just the beginning.

liars

The past 8 months have been magical
and all i can say is i miss you so much
i shouldnt love you, and i know you dont love me.
but the pain i feel, and will feel for a long time to come,
doesnt even matter, i love you so much.
and to know that you dont, shatters my heart into pieces.
i hope you have a good life, and i will be out of yours forever,
thats your choice, to love me or to not. i cant change that.
goodbye forever my love.

Senior Year

Its excellent!
No more rules, no more regulations (well a few) and the best part.. sooo many free periods :D.
I love all my classes and teachers, espically textiles, i finially know how to use a sewing machine.
This year is great, i have a new attitude on life;friends and family.
What a werid thing school can do to you haha. xx

Don't be afraid your life will end; be afraid that it will never begin.

i dread the day when i relize i have done nothing in my life and i have wasted it fully.

Root Canal Treatment

Only boys seem to laugh when i tell them i got it done yesterday.

I was scared oh so scared, but i have to say, the needle didn't hurt, the drilling didn't hurt, and nothing really did except for the after pain. If any of you don't really know what root canal is, ill explain.


1. A long time ago i had an ice skating accident that i wont get into right now, but i snapped my front to teeth off half way up. So i had crowns put over the top for about 5 years now, and 5 years later all crazy things happened which made my tooth just die inside, now.
2. I needed root canal to clean all the stuff outta my tooth because it was already dead.
3. They drill a hole in my tooth until it reaches the nerve space, or none or me lol.
4. They clean it out with these long weird wire things.
5. And then they seal it up with cement looking stuff.

:) and thats the way i explain things ha ha.

Now you can have the gross/graphic picture in your head :D ILYYY TO ALLL

Formal

Today is my year 10 formal.
What we've all been waiting for, and its finally come. As soon as i opened my eyes i knew it was going to be a good day. I can't wait and i can't be more excited. To be with my friends all dressed up and fancy, and just with my whole year. My boyfriend is going to be there and some of my other friends for pictures. My dress is just a plain satin strapless mini. And my fake tan did stuff up as it all came off in the shower, but anywhoo you live and you learn. Its 12:50 and my hair appointment is at 2:30. So im going to go get ready, wash my face and other girly thing.

Seeya x